Today I will write down all the things I wish I could say to you. It is not because I am scared to speak all these words, but there are circumstances that restrict me from letting you know. Let me start off with, I like you, a lot. There are so many reasons why I do. Ranging from the outlook you have on life to the way you look when you speak about your dreams. Your smile is so dangerous, it sucks I can’t call you mine. Spending time with you and talking about dreams makes me inspired to go beyond what I believe I can do. The fire that burns in your eyes give hope that there is a possible way for everything to happen. How you dream so big tells me you know what you want. The only thing is that you sell yourself short. I believe that will do amazing things. One day I hope you see what I see. I really wish I could just hold you in my arms, look you in the eyes and tell you all the things I feel inside. Until then, I will wait and stand by your side to make sure you never doubt yourself. I will always be right here.
Can I just hold you? Kiss you good night? Tell you the many reasons why I love you? As I lay here, I think that one day you will be in my arms. Having you as a best friend, is amazing, but I really love you beyond what we are.
I want to be your one and only. The guy that you cuddle under the stars with, call when you need someone to kill a spider or just to hold you. See, I am that guy, but I want that title to be actually yours. I have seen you hurt by all these guys who don’t understand that you are so gorgeous in every way.
The way you can take something so simple and make it amazing. How you leave your heart out on the floor when you dance. The presence you have when you smile and just stand there. To be honest, I love looking into your eyes and just getting lost in them. Best, you are the reason why I still hope to one day fall in love.
One day, I hope you see at least a fraction of what I see in you, in me.
Lately you and I have been fighting. Disagreements about almost everything and it sucks. Why can’t we just go back to the times where everything seemed to be smiles and laughter? I miss that gorgeous smile you would only have when you looked into my eyes. Love, I miss us just being happy.
Now, you want to pack up and leave. What happened to fighting to be with each other? Why are you all of a sudden throwing the towel? Remember the first promise we ever made to each other? I do. We both said that no matter what, we would fight to stay and be with each other; never giving up.
All I can do is watch you walk out the door. You don’t even want to listen anymore. Before you leave, just know, I love you.
As the sun rises and your eyes open to another day, I know it is going to be a great day. With all that has happened in my life, I thank God for always blessing me. One of the greatest blessings has to be having a life with you, as us. For a long time, I was so lost in the game and playing every girl. Telling lies upon lies and giving hope where there was none. My friends look at me now and call me a different guy. Through the years my family would lecture me and tell me to stop messing with girls’ hearts. When you came along, my whole life changed for the better.
Growing up, I never thought that a girl would change my whole perspective on how I treat someone. Before you, I treated every girl I dated like a possession. It was the worst mindset ever. The day you caught my eye, I knew that some way you had to be in life. You sure didn’t make it easy. To make things short, you made me work. Thank you for that. The greatest things in life are the ones we work the hardest for.
My love, you are amazing. I love you.
- Niko James
Thank you for showing me that love is actually real, and not just some four letter word that everyone seems to say. With the words you speak and actions you showed to back them up, you seemed to make sure I knew you loved me. At night when we just sit and speak for hours along phone lines, you never hung up without letting me know how much you loved, even on the nights you didn’t say those words. You are nothing short of amazing.
Today, I sat and remember the times with just sat on my bed, sang our hearts out and spent time being weird with each other. Remember the nights we looked into each others eyes and made the moment last, what seemed to be, forever? Damn, I miss those times. All I can do now is look at the photos that are still up on Myspace or listen to mixed CDs that we made together.
With all these memories, I am glad you know that I am sorry for all the times I made you feel anything less than gorgeous. So, as my days here on earth keep going, I know my love is watching down on me. Until the day we meet again, know I will always love you for you are the reason I believe in the most important thing, and that is love.
With All My Heart - Niko James
I know it has been a while since I last wrote you. Lately, it has been killing me to know that you are with him. The fact that you have him to thank for the gorgeous smile you wear everyday now. Then again, it was my fault for letting you go. My words now, are just whispers in the wind. Wishing you knew how much I would do to go back and do things right. Now, all I can do is sit here and be happy for you. Keep that smile on. I miss you.
Tonight I will fall asleep thinking about you. It feels good to know that I matter to you. To hold you in my arms and kiss you, means the world to me. Sleep well and dream sweet. Tomorrow, I will be right here.
How was your slumber and did you dream sweet last night? I sure did, with you in sight. See, unlike the rest I will see this through. No matter the wait, I will stay until I have you. Until you are mine and in my arms, to hold, keep smiling and one day, maybe fall in love. Who I am is nothing like ones before me. With much heart, passion and drive, I am here to show you new perspective on something that can be. Give me a chance, one is all it will take, to make you understand that what I say is true. Words are weak until proven by action, so let my words be nothing until I proceed to make you see. You are gorgeous beyond belief, and to be honest, scares me in a way. I was taught that if you dreams don’t scare you, they are not big enough, in this case gorgeous better fits. I am not talking about just skin, but devotion, motivation and passion that burns. Miss, in short of words, I want you to know that you will be the first to see who is the new me. Good morning gorgeous, I hope you slept well. Today I hope you start to see what I really mean.
I just wanted to take the time to thank you for taking a chance with me. See before you came along, I was the last guy you would want to be with. Some words that would be able to come close to describing me are jerk, playa, asshole, punk, and douchebag, just to name a few. You saw past it and made sure I knew that you had hope for a better me. The past has always found some way to just give up, but you gave me your word that you would stick by me as long as I tried to be better. You are doing what I always wanted a girl to do for me. That is to never give up on me. You are amazing. Thank you for being so patient.