Who is up to listen?
Every night I can hold my Disney Princess.
Marry Your Daughter - Alex Thao
I’m gonna marry your daughter, and make her my wife. I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life. And give her the best of me ‘till the day that I die. I’m gonna marry your princess, and make her my queen. She’ll be the most beautiful bride that I’ve ever seen.
As the stars shine and wind is calm. I sit on my bed wondering what I do wrong. I mean when I am mean, I am too mean and when I am nice, I am too nice. It is so hard figure what the hell I do to make people leave from my life. I guess it is karma creeping up on me for all the bad shit I have done in my ignorant teenage phase. Who I was destroyed relationships, mine and others. I have messed with girls mind and emotions, homewrecked a relationship, and so much more. I am not proud of the shit I did once upon a time. I have learned from what I did and made myself better.
Today I am trying to spread smiles and positive vibes. I treat girls with the most respect and when I see someone is in a relationship, I respect it and make sure that I don’t flirt. Who I am today is the total opposite of the guy I once was. It seems like it is not working. I don’t know. I think there is just something wrong with me.
The few times I actually really did fall for a girl, I was shut down and told that I wasn’t what they are looking for or they are not ready for anything. I would wait and wait but the next thing I know I see that girl with someone else. I guess I am not good enough for anyone. Well, I can’t do shit. I will always be Niko James. No one else.
I really hope karma is done with me soon. I am so freakin tired of failing. God please make the next shot of a relationship work. I have been down way too long. The world doesn’t see it because I cover it well with this stupid smile I tell everyone to have on their face. Please God. I place this all in your hands.